Day 8

Blog Post created by Mon2 on Jan 2, 2018

Today was a bad, bad morning for me.  The urge would not go away, I did not smoke.  School starts back tomorrow, so twins  will not be home.  I have cleaned, there is nothing else in the house to do.  It is to cold outside, I can not allow my mind to sit idle and think about the monster that I held onto for 40 years if not longer.  It is time to let go, I just wanted to scream this morning, worst day so far.  As I am sure more of these will come.  I do not look forward to facing them, but with the wonderful people in my life now with this site I shall N.O.P.E.