Heck Week

[PastTense]

Hell Week is over and celebrations are in order.  I have earned a reward which I will pick from the lengthy list I made for myself.  I have only gained 2 lbs (minor miracle).  I have stuck to my plan and my plan is working.

I should feel jubilant!   But, I don't. 

All I can think about in this moment is smoking.  I don't know that it's even a craving.  I don't feel "itchy", like a craving usually makes me feel.  But all I can think about is sneaking a smoke.

I'm doing the 3x3 breathing (breath in for 3 counts, hold for 3 counts, exhale for 3 counts) which is usually the best for crushing cravings - gives you a little head-rush, too, so fun.

I have been absolutely slammed at work.

And yet, my mind has got itself stuck in smoke-mode.

My quit plan says "blog when you crave" so here is my blog.

If I'm back again in 5 minutes, you'll know why!

A blog is better than a smoke.  A blog is better than a smoke.  A blog is better than a smoke.

PT