I once quit for 4 years and still find it hard to believe that I ever started again. I used to be a pack a day smoker a year and a half ago, but I've gotten into a habit of smoking about 4 cigarettes everyday and have been stuck there. It's not even enjoyable anymore because I have a digestive disease since August of 2017and smoking definitely affects how bad it can be and how I feel. I'm not really digesting food very well right now so I can see a difference right after I smoke a cigarette. There are many times that I only smoke 2 cigarettes in a day. I've always been a stress smoker. That's when I have the most trouble. I know it's more of a habit than anything because in the morning after my bathroom routine, showering, brushing my teeth, dressing... all the normal things I go to the kitchen to smoke a cigarette and there are lots of times that I don't really even want it. It's just part of the routine. Stress is where I'm going to have to find a replacement. Aside from that I think I can do it because I don't smoke away from the house and at home I smoke at one spot in the kitchen, no where else. I have to do this for myself because I've lost 150 pounds and have been malnourished from this digestive disease and it has to get better.
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Well its never going to happen until you make the choice to stop once and for all. I am so sorry to hear about your declining health. Smoking, as you know, is not going to help. I relate to stress smoking, many of us used smoking as a Vice to get through stressful situations, and I also recall times I didnt want to smoke,, but did...that my friend, is the addiction calling.
So you have some homework to do. Alan Carr wrote a short book called THE EASYWAY TO STOP SMOKING. It is a fast read and frankly, it is what got my butt into action. Read these blogs on here. Prepare a plan of action for what you will do instead of smoking when craves come.
The only way out is through. Being educated and prepared is more than half the battle. We are here for you, Welcome to Ex!