Need Encouragement!

[hattonc]

I came so close to losing my quit tonight.. I was so angry earlier and my go to has always been cigarettes.. I went so far as to drive to a friends house to get one and I turned around and came home. My cup has run over and I need help dealing with things at this point ... I’m not doing well on the inside and I’m surprised I have held my quit this long ., I’m a strong person but feeling defeated these days .. the scary thing also is wondering if everytime life gets out of hand am I always going to have the urge to smoke .. it just saddens me.. sorry my post is not very positive tonight .. but I didn’t give in...