Made it to another Saturday smoke free.. past couple of days I’ve felt a little more stressed and have had some urges here and there.. I can’t even say “to smoke” cuz it’s not something I ever want to do again ..but why are the urges still there ? I keep myself busy most of the time .. I saw a guy earlier standing by the mailboxes at my apartment complex smoking,and I thought to myself how glad I was that it wasn’t me hiding somewhere to smoke.. I just want this emptiness and feeling like I’ve lost something to go away .. I know I haven’t lost but gained a new life , just need to make some changes .. Have a good day. Day 55 ..