indingrl.01.06.2011

one....

Blog Post created by indingrl.01.06.2011 on Dec 8, 2018

one breathe.....one second....one minute...two minutes......three minutes....four minutes.....five minutes.... I have not used MY drug of CHOICE nicotine for FIVE MINUTES... that is only by Gods grace working for ME.... TODAY....December 8, 2018.... I deal in reality by surrendering ALL to MY God by faith in MY Lord Jesus and by ME obeying MY Holy Counselor.... Spirtually speaking for ME... not anyone else....its been 2893 days of NOT USING NICOTINE....Gods grace has kept ME from using as i spend time with MY 33 year old living with cirrhosis of the liver... Please i am talking about ME not anyone else... So please take what HELPS.... thank you.... Each day i surrender to the FACT i cant change another human... I didnt cause the disease....i cant cure any humans.... They gotta WANT it.... i accept the FACT .... I am a recovering nicotine addict and i HELP the suffering nicotine addict to go READ for yourself..... go EDUCATE yourself..... go get what YOU WANT for yourself.... no one did all the work for ME...God aint gonna DO IT for ME... i had to surrender and admit.... I want to use MY DRUG NICOTINE UNTIL I DROPPED DEAD FROM IT... i admitted complete defeat and i was powerless over MY NICOTINE ADDICTION.... for ME... then and only then did i really believe.... and admit to MY INNER MOST SELF....i really am a NICOTINE ADDICT..... six minutes.... seven minutes.... 30 minutes.... One hour.... 14 HOURS.... NEVER TAKE ANOTHER PUFF EVER......i gotta do the footwork....for ME pray...Read... Study... Change....and most of all.... Love God first then MYSELF.... for how can i give away something i dont have..... then i love all others by telling the TRUTH.... Using nicotine to deal with your FEARS and insecurities will bring early death from using nicotine to cope with your INNER soul sickness.... Go to Dr Hays or the EX team and get PROFESSIONAL HELP.... WE men and women are a fellowship of recovering nicotine addicts.... WE are not PROFESSIONALS.... OR DOCTORS.... OR PRIESTS.... OR LAWYERS..... etc..... WE are a group who dont USE OUR DRUG OF CHOICE NICOTINE ANY MORE..... WE help one another by sharing OUR experience.... by living ONE day at a time breaking it down to.....one..... breathe and only by walking our talk and dealing with the horrors and joys and just PLAIN OLD DAYS of NOT USING....read blogs and GET OUT OF MYSELF AND THINK OF OTHERS ABOVE MYSELF....go volunteer at a hospital or nursing home...or go visit someone..... STOP whinning.... STOP complaing and moaning about how i want to suck on death instead of taking RESPONSIBLITY FOR MY ATTITIDE... Poop or get off the pot.... Make a DECISION... for yourself.... STOP trying to convince YOURSELF.... Your gonna CONTROL your NICOTINE addiction this TIME.... No one could talk or convince ME.... I had to want recovery MORE than i wanted to USE nicotine to escape ME.... THIS DAY ONLY ...i thank God and i am enjoying that MY daughter is ALIVE today...she will NOT get on transplant list for a new liver ...... I accept this and will NEVER TAKE ANOTHER PUFF OVER ME EVER...... I am thanking God i have this recovery site of a recovering FAMILY who understands ME by letting ME be ME...its the similarities.... NOT the differences... NOT competing or NOT a popularity contest ... Its relationsjips... Its love that the hearts speaks how they lost a love one to a disease.... SOMEONE has been where i am at TODAY....because they been where i am at and dealt with life on lifes terms and they care for ME as i care for ALL HERE.....by sharing what they went through and give ME a solution to get through ONE........breathe....one second.  

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