I'm excited to say it's been a great weekend. Learning to be independent and make my days work for me.
Yesterday I went out and got gas in the car, where I usually go. The clerk asked if I wanted cigarettes and I said no thanks I've quit. It felt so good not to get any. Anyway, did groceries, came home and put them away. Then I decided to hire a lawn care guy for spring cleanup and mowing, so I can devote my time to the gardens. That was a big decision to spend money to help me take care of me. Coming up May 11th will be what would have been Brian's and my 44th anniversary. Last week I went downtown and applied for my passport. I'm hoping to be outta here on May 10th to see my daughter and her family. I really want to stay smoke free, but have a lot of inner turmoil about it. I will get through each day, focusing on what I know is true, smoke free is the only way I want to be.
I will be anxious about handling the big airports, I've never been on a big trip before alone. As for today, my sister and brother-in-law and my parents will be coming for coffee and snacks. All of YOU and my family continues to pull me through each day, and I thank you all so much for that!
Love and blessings to each one of you!