Why is eveyone being so hard on me and ridiculaling my status... I feel like i'm being lectured and mean to me beacuse i'm not trying hard enough..Give me a freaking break... I just want o rebel and smoke more. Do you understand where i'm coming from? I'm human too so are you and it have to start or stop when i'm ready. I hope your concern is validated but please try not being so hard i do blogs and keep track of my cigurrestes not the best but I know my before my birthday i'm going to cut back every day and eventually the last one before march 30th. all lighters cigs, everything will be thrown out and if You understand you probably wemt through the same issues and you're a head of me in making progress,,, I'm trying to spread time out before i have anothe cigurette and feel that i'm determined to becoming a non smoker forthe tthird time i'm sorrry for being a bitch but i'm very emotionally broken down. Piock on someone that really need a kick in the ass. You think it's me that keeps telling me things aren't right. It's my sub conscious that remind me of death or illnesses. I'm very aware of all the emotions the chemicals the damage it does to my body. But as an addiction I used crack cocaine for several years and haven't use for 8 years. can you just believe that. If it was near me I may reuse. But i tell myself i get real sick mentally and phyically. I'm not pretending to be strong about quitiing. it will be ove and every birthday i have wil bea large celebration when i've quit cold turkey. medications my me psycotic and so that's why i have no ai but a box of goodies i made for out class like pens rocks candy sraws scushy balls and bubbles i attend a surpervise a class clear the air and i've had 4-5 people attended. and show videos on how it effect my body and i'm noticing everysince the last 6 weeks that i fell off the wagon my teeth look horrible. To all of you I wish the best and will continue to take advice. I'm going to get coffee now. havea awesome day.
Rabbitt
