I thought about smoking today. Not because I wanted to smoke but because I am close to 6 years smoke free. I don't usually think about smoking, unlike six years ago when I thought about it every hour of the day. I woke up one day and kicked that evil demon (nicotine) out of my life.... sorta like getting a divorce... it was not easy... and I thought I loved him (Nick) and was not sure I could get through the day without him. He was slowly killing me. I see clearly now and sometimes wonder how I could have been so stupid.
Walk away... don't look back. Being addicted is awful. Being free is not only possible but wonderful! Do it!