i wrote on mt message board yesterday , about my return to smoking several years ago after quitting for about a year. i was just recently diagnosed with lung cancer. in my left lung . i am again on the drug chantix for 7 days now but i have not set a quit date. i am so addicted now that even cancer is not enough to make me quit cold turkey. i am overwhelmed at the moment with doctor appointments cancer center test, , money problems, family stress . ect ect, that all my triggers are activated constantly. i,m very sressed and and very sick waiting on another test and a biopsy to see what my treatment will be. i am vaping mostly but now smoking also. i live alone and have no one to talk to about this . all i get from my family is u need to quit. and thats it no support what so ever. i,m at a cross roads of do i fight this or do i just let it take me and be done ? i,m now 65 retired and a 50 year smoking habit . with maybe a couple of years not smoking.. i have done this ptogram twice read all the material and data. yet i have not set a quit date as yet . i can,t seem to get my head readyt to quit because i,m constantly thinking about the cancer and all the procedures i,ll have to do to fight it . also i am well aware of the siyuation of our planet right now. between geoengineering , the tecno take over of humans, as in (master the human domain ) as in new world order plans.. . there is no doubt that the battle of god and satan is upon us... and i,m going with gods army . but i am no good to god or any one in this current state of health and mind. . any advice would be appreciated . i don,t know where else to go to talk about this. i am not a face book or google blogger anymore because it,s to public and not safe places to blog about personnel stuff. thank you for reading this.
