Well...68 days ago I quit smoking...and it lasted for roughly two weeks. Then I quit wearing my patch..and it went back to one a day...and so on and so on...until I was back to my old habit. Morning coffee...three cigarettes....lunch...two cigarettes...after work...a cigarette on the way home..then home...a cigarette to unwind..then dinner.and a cigarette after dinner to settle the food...then one more before bed...I was up to 8-10 cigs a day. I'm 48 years old...I saw my sister die at 48 of lung cancer...and I kept on smoking!
I feel so stupid...but, I think with the motivation I'm getting on this website...and knowing that I'm not alone in this battle...I can kick this addiction in the butt!!!
Day two...back on the patch...only this time I'm not going to think that I'm over it quite so fast. I think each time I have tried to quit..or quit...I learn alittle bit more about myself...so I don't regret not kicking it those other times I tried...because they've helped me see that this is really an addiction...not just something that I decide to do..but something that I'm being driven to do.
