They have so many AA groups, NA groups all specific to Alcoholism, Narcotics but nothing specific to nicotine, NICA or something would work. When I was first in my quitting stages, I would have loved to have dropped anything and went to a meeting just to vent. Not to have someone show me pictures of my diseased lung, how I can get cancer, how it can develop into this disease and that disease, but just plainly how to get through that second, that moment. Have someone to stand up and say, Back in my first 30 days, I went through this..... wow, so am I.
That's why I am so thankful for finding this site. 2 years ago I knew I couldn't do this on my own. I knew I needed more education because everything else I was doing sure wasn't working. Talking to former smokers that I personally knew wasn't working because all they said was oh, it's not that hard, just quit. it will only suck for a few days. Well, they didn't tell me about the depression, the anger, the constant push and pull, the obsessive thoughts, the broken sleep.
That's why I find the articles and the blogs on this site so rewarding. They say exactly what I'm going through and feeling. Of course there's no exact timeline of when it's going to happen such as at 30 days you'll be going through this or at 60 days you'll be going through this. Almost kind of wish they did so I'd have the comfort of knowing that I only have X amount of days to go until this passes. Only 10 more days and it will finally be over.
I think once you get to the thought of you're an addict, you'll always be an addict, you've got this half licked. None of us are born smokers, none of us are born alcoholics, none of us are born drug addicts, but some of us are. It could be the wiring in our brains, it could be a hereditary gene, it could be because all of us addicts are depressed, who knows. Believe me people, this is not just a habit. This is something that absolutely consumes you at first. Grabs ahold of you and just won't let go...... at first. As time passes, at my 83 days, it consumes me maybe once or twice a day, but I understand what it is. I know it will pass. I know I need to get my mind off of it, get busy, step away from what I'm doing........ BUT if you can't step away, get those pleasure centers working and listen to some music, hum a tune in your head, imagine yourself wading in a cool creek. This morning this is what I got my brain working on https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EisXJSsULGM
