I have no excuse. No job. No money pressure. Just chronic pain, depression and anxiety. But I know the cigs are increasing the pain and still can't stop myself from putting that first one in my mouth every day. Raising 2 grandkids, ages 12 and 14. They are good kids, a little naive maybe, but that's o.k. with me. They are smart, so maybe what I don't know can't hurt me--unless you're talking about smoking. I KNOW it's hurting me.
I have so much I could do to distract myself. But it only works so much and finally I am facing the need for a smoke. I am so discouraged . . .
Don't know what else to say, except I haven't stopped smoking and have never used online chatting to help. Are there really people out there that are willing to walk me through my cravings? Hello? I need help.
Bernie
