Estelle's blog reminded me - I had a smokemare last night!!! I just went to the beach - when I made the reservation I caught myself thinking how nice a cigarette would be with my coffee watching the sunrise over the ocean. WHAT? I have been quit for 3 3/4 YEARS!!!! What I REALLY wanted, I know, was to recreate that moment when my health was still perfect, I hadn't a worry in the world . I think that one thought triggered last night's 'mare.
It takes a long time and lots of repetitions to get past the associations and triggers built up over years of smoking. And - I haven't been able since I quit to see that many sunrises on the beach to build NEW memories.
The good news is that, the further along we get in our quits, the easier these moments are to swat away....but we must ALWAYS be vigilant. Just the way it is!