So if I were repressing some skeleton in my closet it would be one thing. But the truth is I’ve chewed up and spit out the same depressing childhood muck for decades. And I’m done with all that!
Now I’m looking at the depression/anxiety cycles differently. Something is happening in my Brain. So rather than resist, control, or suppress it, I’m just going to make room for it and ride the wave!
Granted depression/anxiety isn’t an urge like nicotine or alcohol cravings but it is a physiological urge toward fight/flight! But what am I fighting if not very, very old memories and a ton of “what ifs?” Rather pointless when looked at rationally!
So my game plan is to let those thoughts and feelings be but don’t buy into them! I can just give them enough time and space to expend all their energy and get back to the business of Abundant Living!
Will it work? Who knows? All I know is what doesn’t work!
Meanwhile I’m grateful for so many things among them my Wonderful BecomeanEX Family and Friends who drop by to lift me up and let me know that I’m not alone! So again I Thank You ALL for being here while I find my way out of the darkness into the light of day riding the wave of Recovery!
I promise each and every one of you that I WILL NOT SMOKE a stinking Sickerette NO MATTER WHAT!
God Bless and pray for Ellen!
