When you face down that Demon you come to the realization that for once in many, many Years you are the Master of your decisions! There is absolutely nothing like it! You shine with satisfaction knowing that you put your true self above your Addiction and WON! The more challenging the moment - the greater the Victory!
And you learn some other piece of the puzzle about what Life - especialy My Life - is really all about!
The last time I faced such a crisis, I learned that I still have a long way to go in understanding the Serenity Prayer! For those who don't know this prayer it goes:
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
I learned that I still don't like relinquishing control when in fact, I never really had/ have control over most things in the first place! A very hard lesson to learn! But once learned it has given me an inner Peace and Acceptance that I didn't have before!
This Quit Journey just keeps giving and giving!!!!!
Nicotine Addiction just keeps robbing and stealing!
Praise the Lord I am Addiction FREE!