I have been rereading, as suggested by a very smart and humble friend, my own blogs. The more I read the stronger and happier I am getting. I am happy and so very proud of myself for trusting and believing in God to see me through. I know that if God brought you to it, HE will see you through it. I believe that with my whole heart. I also believe that, all things are possible through Christ who strengthens me.
I am making this my forever quit from this moment on. I need to be proud of myself for what I am doing. I am doing better than yesterday. I need to bring my focus inward, like a closer range. A lot more present moment thinking. And to keep what God has in store for me at the forefront of my mind. I know HE does not want me to be crippled and die by way of smoking. I am so sure of that. I don’t want that for me either.
I have already drawn my line in the sand. I will not cross it again. I can do this. I just need to know that within myself and to stop second guessing myself. I can do this. I am an EX smoker. This is my forever quit. It is far past time I get up and get back into life, my new life in Christ as an EX smoker. I love coming here to EX to talk with all you wonderful people. I don’t want to give this up. I love all of you that I’ve gotten to know. I love helping however I can be of help. I need to feel needed and wanted by others. This is my only social outlet. And I am thankful for EX and all of you.
Sincerely,
Cathy
