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[monica17]

Hello EX community,

My health has been so bad that I've been unable to sit up for more than a few minutes so keeping in contact was impossible.  I am happy to report the stomach issues are resolving and hope to incorporate daily use of the Ex community.

Wish me luck, I am encouraged to know others have quit.  I do need to find myself with a new mindset that quitting the smoking habit is possible for me, that I am not the only one who can never, will never, stop smoking.  My father has a massive heart attack and open heart surgery, he had quit smoking but a visit from a volunteer pissed him off and he started smoking again.  He would take off his oxygen canula and light up.  He smoked daily until his last hospitalization and that's the picture I have of myself....

I suspect part of the quit process is distancing myself from the long held belief that smoking is part of my identity and without I do not have an identity to replace it.  Crazy thoughts, or excuses is more likely.

Monica