Boo for losing my 33 yr old filling Monday evening, yay that I only had a dull ache, boo that my dentist wasn't in this wk but yay for the emergency number and yay again that I was lucky enough to get in this morning at 8 o'clock so I couldn't take Mason this school this morning but his Dad went in to his job late to take him but even so, I had to get up for 6 and be out of here shortly after 7, it was warm enough that we didn't have frost but it was really foggy by the river but I left in lots of time and hadn't been up in this particular area in 15 yrs or so. A beautiful fox crossed the road and wasn't in any hurry ,I wasn't going very fast anyway because of the fog. The freezing is coming out now and I had some toast and come noon I will start the prep for the colonoscopy tommorrow which has taken 5 and a half months to get in to get it done, I won't know until after 3 what time I have to be at the hospital to get it done but I hope it's early to get it over with, my husband is going to take tommorrow off as a vacation day to take me, then we'll pick up Mason at my daughters and bring him here for the rest of the day and overnight because the next 2 days there's no school and it's our Thanksgiving wk end so there's no school on Monday. Anyway my friends and fellow Exers, I should stop rambling and just say that I am so thankful that I finally wised up 814 precious days and am a very Happy Quitter because if I was still smoking, I would have lit up a cancer stick as soon as I left the dentist office frozen face and all but not anymore and that makes me very happy, quitting smoking wasn't easy by no means but anything worth having in life takes time and effort but wow it's so worth it to be free from the clutches of the dreaded nicotine poison, I finally realized that I wasn't invincible that if I didn't brighten up I was probably going to end up on oxygen 7 / 24 or even worse die a slow painful death that's most likely smoking related so I bit the bullet and decided to take back my life which certainly at times was a roller coaster of ups and downs and mood swings and cravings but I made through an if there's anyone here struggling hang on tight because you will make it through too, here's a couple of mantras that I learned here and used. N.O.P.E - means Not One Puff Ever which will give you a beautiful smoke free life because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - and H.A.L.T - hunger, anger, lonely and tired, which I have a hard time with so let's try to eat right and rest when we have a chance and if you have been quit awhile N.E.F.-Never Ever Forget the early days and wks of your quit because who wants to go back to day ONE again when we can smile and enjoy each evening another day WON!