She came a knocking about a week ago, upon opening the door, I could she was wet and cold. I invited her in but she replied, "Not on this day, you need to come out and play" I sadly told her I did not want to go, fear not she said, for there will be no more snow!
Springtime came knocking on my door! Yippee.
150 smoke free days through some pretty hard months. When did the daily choice not to smoke change from will power to willingness? I wish everyone to enjoy the springtime as much as I am looking forward to it and I couldn’t help but reflect how I went from FEAR to JOY. I was fortunate, my transformation happened on DAY 19.
An Excerpt from DAY 1 (6 hours into it) (2 weeks of fearful anticipation had to be endured prior to day one)The FEAR of tackling the office backlog was so much worse than actually just doing it, RIGHT NOW, I'm finding the same thing is true about committing to not having any more cigarettes. The FEAR of it was a whole lot worse for a few days than actually doing it today.Y'alls support, comments, blogs and pages helped me hunker down to get 'er done. It's been about 6 hours but no sweat........ There is no way in hell I'm going to write in my blog tomorrow.......that I smoked.THANK YA'LL FOR THAT!
An Excerpt from DAY 19 Dreading my day yesterday (Day 19) I headed to my neighbor’s house to do a roof repair I previously promised to do but now was dreading. Walking out the door with coffee in hand and the anticipation of a cigarette filled my brain. Before the door could slam behind me, I took a breath of the fresh fall morning air. My brain flipped flopped right then. I did not want a cigarette, I enjoyed the freshness of the air and took several more deep breaths and sipped my coffee as I walked towards the job, walking tall feeling great. From gloom and doom to a great day.
An Excerpt from DAY 50 I still remember the fear and anxiety of my first days but I EMBRACED MY QUIT instead of feeding my fear. I continue to embrace my quit and actually get very angry when cravings try to weaken me. I at times envision myself smoking and immediately, "great anxiety and fear washes over my body."This is when I hug my quit. (((((QUIT))))My quit is my new safe place and I love it!
SPRING, NEW GROWTH. Fresh, Clean and feeling alive. I wish the same for everyone.
