I have always considered myself a very positive person. A survivor, when the goings get tough I am a “handle” it kind of woman. My last blog did not represent that. It showed that even at almost 300 days quit that I am not perfect. Yes I may have a little bump of an urge. So what? I sure didn’t get sick. I didn’t die, and by all means didn’t smoke.
Okay so I thought about it. I was in the mist of where I always smoked, never bothered me before but it did that time. Maybe because of the other stressors going on. My journey of freedom is definitely a learning process. Lesson, nonsmokers have good days and bad days. Period. I don’t have to smoke to get through anything. #1) I have made a commitment not to smoke and that’s the bottom line. No matter what! Period!
Blame it on the season change….no way. This is a time of Thanksgiving. I love the fall of the leaves. I love the wind blowing the chimes. I love the rain, hail, sleet, and snow. My focus should be thankfulness: for still living without major health issues. Thankful that I have food and shelter, friends and family. Thankful for a time to do the things I enjoy without smoking.
So this morning I decided to do things a little bit different. Literally on purpose got out on a different side of the bed . Opened the curtains to let the light in even though it is rainy and overcast the sunlight came through. Focused on my personal needs first instead of someone else’s. Did not read the blogs with my coffee as usual. Just had coffee and meditated. I did not wait for anyone else to wake up and cater to. I was out the door on a mission. Thought? How can I take care of someone else if I don’t take care of me? I signed up for a senior exercise class. (FREE) starts tomorrow. Still reorganizing my garage, work area, office, crafts shop. This is my life get a grip. It is not the end of the world because of all the STUFF going on in this world. It is a new and DIFFERENT DAY. No complaints....Actions. I am going to work on my list of goals and I am not putting them off anymore. Glad I went through to get to. I am a nonsmoker and I will always be whether I urge or purge. Whatever! SINAO (smoking is not an option) but I will still BOG (be on guard). Thanks you all for your words of wisdom while I was going through. Here it is 2 o clock and folks are just waking up. Just think of the time I would have wasted
