Good morning one and all!
I hope you all enjoy a new, free of smoke day. My day started early, in about 4 h I will have cortisone shots in both my knees. It was about time I do something to be able to walk again.
As I mentioned in a past blog, I am recovering from stopping Cymbalta cold turkey; even though I knew better than what I did, the side effects of the drug on me (including but not limited to muscle cramps and extreme weakness) made me decide to go cold turkey. And let me tell you it is not easy. Today would be 2 weeks since my body got not more Cymbalta, and many of the withdrawals symptoms are still strong: my fingers are now half asleep (typing became very difficult), I retain an insane amount of water in my body, and many of the swollen areas are tingly, painful, they burn and hurt.
Yesterday I gave myself a massage with a crème created in the pharmacy of the pain clinic I go for the shots today. The cream should not be rubbed in, just gently applied; but went ahead and rubbed it in, and in about 10 minutes the pain went from a 7-8, to an over 10, I was crying in pain, had to wash away the cream, and to wait for another 10-15min for it to fad a little. It was maybe the first time as an EX when I said “right now a cigarette would feel really good” and my daughter in law said “not it won’t”. Of course I had not intended to have one, however I know at that moment it would have “calmed down” my nerves, even if for a minute. But I got over the pain, over the impulse of having one, and back to my “swollen, painful” life as it has been lately. It will get better eventually, once my body gets used to the idea it has to cope on its own, no more crutches.
I do work today, so I will try to take a nap at the clinic, while waiting for the procedure, and right after it (they keep you for another hour or so), and will be back trying to work (if I can before falling asleep on the keyboard).
Please think of me, hopefully the shots are not too painful, I will definitely let you know!
Hugs to all!\
Good Morning All
Good morning All
(: Good Sunday morning one & all :)
(: Good Sunday morning one and all :)
