~~It's dark because you are trying too hard. Learn to do everything lightly. Just let things happen and lightly cope with them. Throw away your baggage and go forward. There are quicksands all about you, sucking at your feet, trying to suck you down into fear and self-pity and despair. That why you must walk so lightly.~~Aldous Huxley, Island
Don't try so hard!! There is no such thing as a 'perfect' quit. No one I've ever known, heard of, or read about quit smoking and immediately forgot they ever smoked. So what if you have a bad day? You had them when you did smoke. So what if you have a huge crave for a smoke? It only means your brain it readjusting its neurotransmitters. So what if you get angry....sad....stressed.....anxious? All those things have been in your life before.
The only difference is that now you don't let your addiction win. You don't smoke. And isn't that a totally magnificent phrase?!! You. Don't. Smoke. There is absolutely nothing dark about that, is there? Nothing negative. Nothing to be ashamed of or embarrassed by.
So walk lightly. Notice how you feel but don't allow yourself to get stuck in any emotion. Feel angry but don't wallow in the anger. Feel sad but don't allow yourself to dwell in the sadness. Because they will pass on their own unless you sit and refuse to move onward.
Everything you are doing by quitting is positive. Your health will no longer be damaged by smoking. Your finances will get better. You will smell better. You will be able to taste again. You will have more time to enjoy your family, friends, life!
So, again, walk lightly. Don't take anything too seriously. Allow yourself to be excited by your quit. Allow yourself to feel thrilled by your journey. Allow yourself to be curious about what's up ahead. Allow yourself to see the possibilities.
I hope you find joy in your quit!!