Moving onward on the path to freedom! I caught a cold yesterday. What an interesting thing this turned out to be. You see, I remember when I used to get sick and smoked. It was such a strange thing to think about.
The lungs becoming less then happy and yet I still smoked! Even though I could feel the burning nasty smoke entering my already unhappy lungs, I smoked anyway. Just goes to show how far an addict will go to keep the old addiction alive!
This time however, I’m not smoking. This time the lungs will be given every chance they deserve to heal. Not only that, after the cold is gone there won’t be the racking cough that I used to get simply because all I’ll be ridding myself of is the effects of the cold without the smokers cough to go along with it. This in itself will strengthen my quit because it’s a reminder of what I used to do. It’s a reminder of how I used to feel.
It’s a reminder that shows me just how addicted I was and as such it’s a reminder of how far I’ve come since I put out that last cigarette. It’s always good to demonstrate to my internal addict the negative aspects of smoking. Just another part of the training process that must take place in order to win freedom.
Thankfully, I always try to look to the positive when I can and as such I see this cold as more of a blessing then a curse. It’s simply a tool to help reinforce my quit! It’s a means of establishing my true feelings with myself. This in itself makes me happy. It makes me realize just how free I’ve become even though the war isn’t quite over yet.
And so today I move on, confident in the fact that I will be much healthier. Knowing that this time I’m doing what my body needs instead of fueling an addiction that does me no good. And you know what? This allows me to smile my way through my illness. It allows me to escape the negative feelings that sometimes come with a cold and instead relish in the achievement that I have made in my life.
It allows me to take a step back and look at the journey. To see it for what it really is. To understand myself which in itself is an incredibly positive thing. But mostly it allows me to see yet another benefit of the freedom I so long to achieve!
Onward and upward to freedom!!
