I've been in a funk every day, just staying home and trying to do my best. I really notice that the more I accomplish here the better I feel. I don't like it when I'm "stuck" in one place with all my thoughts. I did get out yesterday to my parents house. Each visit is precious. Now when it comes down to it, it's up to me to make my day happen.
Change of seasons is tough for me and so many others. Sept 6th 11 years ago I was diagnosed with breast cancer.
Thank goodness I had Brian here to help me through it. I am just wandering aimlessly sometimes, lost in my own head. I know smoking is off the table. It would be nice, if I could figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life.
Right now, I'm just managing one day at a time. Same for the quit. One day at a time! I got more patches at shopper's drug mart today, and that makes me very happy, that I could drive there to get them.
I am super worried about my daughter and her family in California, anxious, but there isn't one thing I can do for them except pray that they and their house will be ok. Ok, this is nuts I'm rambling here, but I didn't smoke.
I am trying to focus on all the things to be grateful for. I've had somewhat of a negative attitude lately, and I don't like that!! thanks for reading all my EX friends. xo
