Help, Hanging On

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Hello, it's 2:00 a.m. I can't sleep. Things have been rough in my marriage lately. More and more fights.

I have been married to the same man for 38 years. I love him still, but I'm not sure he has any feelings still for me. All this makes me want to smoke. I know it won't help anything here, but that was always what I turned to in the past. I am in constant turmoil these days, always wondering where I stand and if my marriage is over.

Oh well, this could just be a rough faze in our relationship. At least the last two days have been a lot better.

Maybe it's just me? I always used cigarettes to sooth the bad feelings before........but I won't do that this time.

So.........please help me hang onto tomorrow when hopefully things will look up.

Thanks for reading this.

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I'm a widow now, my husband passed away January 1, 2018 He died of COPD, and pre leukemia and the flu. He quit smoking 15 years ago which gave him extra time. I am a mother, and grandmother. I have smoked for 47 years. I am going to have my forever quit and I'm doing it for me and my two daughters so I can live longer and be with them. I like to read, swim, garden, crochet, paint and doodle. I also enjoy walking and visiting with friends and family. I am 100% making this my last quit. I have been in denial about what smoking has done to me and my kids. I must make a new life for myself and it doesn't include cigarettes. I may already have COPD, but have not been officially diagnosed.

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