Hiding from Ourselves

[Thomas3.20.2010]

Maybe we didn't start out that way or maybe some of us did! I know I did! 

I was hiding from my own insecurities and I found that smoke cloud a great place to hide!

I could pretend to be "cool!" I could hang out with my smoking buddies instead of creating healthy relationships.

I could be "rebellious" instead of dealing with my Family.

I could be "not me" because I didn't think I was "good enough!"

What I learned after time when that smoke cloud lifted is that 

I am cool without wasting money slowly killing myself.

I can be - am uniquely Special!

Healthy relationships with Family and Real Friends is worth the effort.

I am Loveable! I can Love myself just as I am - Addiction FREE 

more than ever!

This Community gave me a wonderful place to start learning all of this.

I began hanging out with people who wanted to Live Addiction FREE!

I learned that we all make mistakes and that's OK!

People who make mistakes and take responsibilty are Likeable and Loveable.

Me, too! Now I get to be me - the Best Me that I can BE - Smoke FREE!

[Daniela2016]

Good morning Thomas,

Many of the reasons you started smoking were mine too. 

And your last reason was a big "motivator" for my starting smoking too!  I was not good enough!  I was a good, disciplined, talented kid but never "good enough" for my dad because I was not always First; first in school (usually second or third), first in math (and he paid a private tutor to make me first).  Then I reached maturity, and found a way of hiding from that, being a smoker!

Why did it take me so long to understand life is not about who comes first, but about who can I love, care for, who cares for me, how can I do more for those I love, and respect while loving and respecting myself too?

Still working on it, but I know with your help, and guidance, I am learning every day to become a better person, a true EX, and loving myself enough to stay the EX I became.

Have a wonderful day and thank you for not giving up on us, we are a work in progress!

Daniela

236 DOF

[Thomas3.20.2010]

I am a work in progress!

And that's OK!