Hey there, Katie! Hang in there, please! EVERY time I quit smoking I had a sensational feeling of loss. Couldn't understand it. I think that is why Zyban worked for many people. It is actually an anti-depressant (Wellbutrin) that was prescribed for, well, depression and many found they could quit smoking while they were on this medication. I was taking Wellbutrin for depression and one time when I quit, I didn't have that feelling of loss. I am NOT recommending Zyban, my point is only that it is perfectly NORMAL (if there is such a thing) to grieve your "friend" when you quit. You WILL get over it. I GUARANTEE it. I will have one year smoke free on 10/26 and I never even think about smoking unless it is to think about how glad I am I quit!