I’m some 400 and odd days since my last cigarette! I’m immeasurably happy about this. It’s made a huge change to my life and also my families life. I don’t get cravings any more and heck I’ve managed to get through having my little one in PICU without relapsing.
Every now and again though I have these random dreams and I’ll see myself with a cigarette or when I’m looking in my handbag I find myself looking for my box of cigs. It passes and then I’m fine . It’s just so weird . I have no intention of ever smoking again and I can honestly say 99% of the time I feel like a non smoker.
does this happen to anyone else or am I just weird?
Happens to most, if not all, of us. After almost seven years I don't find myself looking for them anymore, but still have what we call a "smokemare" every once in awhile. No explanation for it!
If you are like most of us, we smoked for a really long time, and the trigger/association/habit part of the addiction is probably something we will carry with us for a very long time. The "something is missing" part may end at some point for you...that part did end for me. I still, though, might find myself thinking, :"gee, but a cigarette would be nice right now!" Easy to dismiss, but it happens usually as a reward for a job well done break, or in a situation with which I haven't had a lot of repetitions, like sitting on a balcony at the beach, or on the sand watching the sun rise with my coffee. A shake of the head and a smile that I don't do that anymore is enough to get past it.
Nancy