I am over 100 days quit, still on NRT's, and feel worse than I fever have. Some is the quit, but also outside stressors. I know a cig won’t solve them, but I miss the days I could just get that fix and move on. I gets frustrated reading the suggestions because I cannot exercise or find ways to pamper myself that fit me anymore due to physical maladies that drain emotional ones. My go to activities are drying up. My mind is shot from being widowed and alone. I know more about nicotine than I ever have, yet I liked smoking. I’m not convinced I hid my emotions behind it at all. I was around non smokers that had the same reactions and feelings I did. I was just using an addictive substance they weren’t. My husband quit for years and didn’t develop more awareness of himself for it. So I quit posting much because I’m not proud of anything right now. I’m still on oxygen which I was desperately hoping to lose.
I am very happy for all the people here that have continue to conquer this and help others. They have tried to help me and I so appreciate it. I came into this quit disabled and it’s gotten worse so I’m trying not to rain on parades. One thing is I don’t have desire to smoke. My body still wants nicotine so I give it that. I quit smoking once for a long time in my 20’s and went back because I liked it. Pure and simple. No revelations or epiphanies. So I guess I’m swimming against the stream here, but do like reading motivations. I just wish I had one like family. I’m just an aging hermit and not by choice. If my husband was here it would make all the difference. One is a huge back surgery that scares the bejeezus out of me. I was there for all his so he never faced anything like this.
Im babbling, I’ll stop. I know I have bothered some here with my different circumstance.
you are all inspirations and maybe they will hit me one day.
