sitting on my hands today, it is day 14 or 15 for me, and I feel like I did back at day 2-3- panicky, restless, overwhelmed.
I've noticed several people have documented "roller coaster" days like this...it feels like a physical craving- compulsion, almost.
hoping and praying tomorrow is back to "normal".
Congrats to everyone who is in this with us! ❤️
So glad you noticed the positives during your 'ARRRG' moment! I'm not sure why my teeth haven't been whitening more. I did notice that a couple weeks ago that they're not looking as white as they did after other quits. I'll start putting the whitening pen to them I guess. Hang in here girl. I wanted a cigarette so bad last night after one of my internal hissy fits, a tantrum that I do not show externally in any way. It only lasted long enough for me to acknowledge what an idiot I was on both things, the hissy fit and the perceived 'fix'. Make a special note either physical or mental after each temptation has passed. Something to remind you that you made it through the last time you felt that way without giving in to a smoke. My special note for the reasons I was having a hissy fit was 'shut up, put up, and grow up'. It may sound harsh but it works like a charm when I start to go down that one particular path. Swing chickens if you need to, anything but another thought of lighting up! Keep up the hard work you've put in. You wouldn't step on a beautiful cake you just made so keep your cake (your quit) safe!!
Julie
84 DOF
This has cracked me up for days- swing chickens!!
Every time I want a smoke, I've kept a visual of me swinging chicken carcasses around and, well... VOILA! Craving gone and laughter follows;-)
Like I tell everyone, 'If I'm good for nothing else, I'm always good for a laugh'. Glad to be obliged Keep up the great work you are rockin this quit girl! Give me a shout if you need to and endeavor to persevere your day.
Can I swing my husband around? I think that would make me feel better (LOL)
If it's not illegal, immoral or fattening, go for it. I'll join you. Mine could use a good swingIng too!
Oh, hubby doesn't know what he's in for tonight!
Lisa,
GREAT job thinking of the positives. Sitting on your hands is OK as long as you don't weigh more than a cow!!!! Those days you just get through a chunk at a time. Did you stay busy, I hope? Change your routine up, I hope?
You DID it - and that's an important lesson. Keep in mind the tools that worked so you can have them at the ready next time this happens. It may or may not.....but be ready!
Hope this day is easier - you will find the good ones outnumber the bad ones - and the bad ones will start to be further and further apart. It's a roller coaster ride, for sure.
Nancy
It IS a roller coaster ride and so is life...when we quit smoking, we are just SO much more aware of the roller coaster moves. We tend to dwell on them...I am so glad that you were able to find the UP parts that are really exciting and will do nothing but grow from here on in. CONGRATULATIONS on two weeks. You really ARE doing well!
Oh Lisa. Those days are not that long ago for me. I remember a few days ago I wanted to fall to my knees and beg for mercy. Surprisingly, the next day was okay. Don't know exactly what it is, but when the urge/crave hits after being at bay for a little while it crashes like a 25 foot wave. Hang in there. It will get better (wow...that's what the Elders said to me and they were right).
All the best,
Michelle
It's a day later. I hope you found the steady ground you were looking for. One day at a time, yes you can.
It is definitely an up and down journey...but, you are doing the right things - by focusing inpositive things and by blogging here! Congrats on your quit!
Thanks, all. Today has been a little rocky as well, but c'est la vie... thanks for your encouragement.
Heres something weird- I usually "marked" the start of something with a smoke... then had another when completed.
For example, I'd have a smoke before I cleaned the kitchen. Like "topping up the tank" before I got down to business.
Then, have another (or 2) when whatever task was completed..
so, I've been SUPER LAZY and kind of idling these past couple weeks. I need to find something to do as a "reward". Lol. No I don't, I need to get off my butt and get back in the swing of things... lol.
But seriously, it was a huge part of my day, and I know I can expect to feel normal yet. Sigh.
Sending you all big hugs for listening;-)
I was also a transition smoker, and the elimination of smoking afforded me so much more free time! I looked at that as the reward.
I seem to recall that I had the hardest day of my quit right around this time frame, so you're not alone. Thankfully, I already had two weeks under my belt and I was not about to give up on my quit, but it was still a challenge. It passed, just like all cravings pass.
You're doing very well, Lisa... and isn't it great to see your skin glow again?!?
I experienced the same emotion...no smoking break for accomplishing anything I did. So...I went from one project..to another without missing a step. Then there would be just absolutely lazy days of nothing..reading, blogging, just feeling frozen in life without returning to my addiction. It will all be worth it...each day is a day won. Keep it real Lisa and positive!
~Kathy
But here's a "positive"- after just 2 weeks, my skin and teeth look way better. Those little lines around my mouth aren't as noticeable to me, and my pearly whites look.... white.
so thats the good news im hanging on to right now;-)