I have, yet, discovered another thing about myself through this journey. After reading my blogs I recognize that the mornings are when I have the most difficulty. As I was doing my morning drive to drop my husband off (isn't it nice he has his own private driver) I dreaded the feeling I had. I suppose the old me would choke the morning off by smoking. It did not make it a good morning, yet it was what I was accustomed to. During the car ride I drank cold water, put a stick of gum in my mouth, and took some deep breaths. After I dropped him off I did some self-talk and visualized (as I often do) what would happen if I smoked. Again, I knew I would choke my brains out and be very disappointed in myself. Bottom line is that I did not smoke. Now I need to add something to my morning to get rid of those thoughts before I torture myself. Perhaps I will start meditation to calm my mind. I know that it works because I do it when there is too much going on in my life and I need to recenter. It is time to take it out first thing in the morning and warm it up like I do with my car on cold days. The feeling of smoking leaves me cold, so I will make myself warm by meditating. Thanks for listening.