Good Morning, Checking In

Discussion created by 12Finally34 on Jul 14, 2017
Latest reply on Jul 14, 2017 by elvan

Hi Everyone,


Still trying to figure out how to go to each person's blog and say thank you.  I feel really awkward navigating this system.  


Anyway, these feelings are not my reality.  I am just checking in to discuss what I learned and what i am doing.


I went without cigarettes from 5PM to 8:17 AM this morning.  My trigger is going straight to store - have to change pattern and sit with that desperate urge when it comes over me.  


I read, haven't returned to Carr yet; however, I am educating myself with the different materials.  Thanks for the COPD and sleep apnea articles.  It is nice to know that while I may get a good night sleep, it still doesn't prevent heart attack and stroke - so I must continue with reading the low sodium and sugar eating.  I missed my heart specialist appointment but will see him on the 19.  


The article about what to expect was helpful and writing the 'Dear John' letter.   I am on summer vacation and I sort of wishing that I was at work because I spoke only 4 cigarette (two at lunch and two on the way to the subway).  At home I am like a rebellious child and smoking like there is no tomorrow.  Then the shame and guilt takes over because I am trying to kill the smoke from the neighbors who says it comes through the walls and windows.  I have their support and they are my cheerleaders.  


Have a great day everyone!




PS hope when I quit I will not be chattering like I feel I am doing now.