Still trying to figure out how to go to each person's blog and say thank you. I feel really awkward navigating this system.
Anyway, these feelings are not my reality. I am just checking in to discuss what I learned and what i am doing.
I went without cigarettes from 5PM to 8:17 AM this morning. My trigger is going straight to store - have to change pattern and sit with that desperate urge when it comes over me.
I read, haven't returned to Carr yet; however, I am educating myself with the different materials. Thanks for the COPD and sleep apnea articles. It is nice to know that while I may get a good night sleep, it still doesn't prevent heart attack and stroke - so I must continue with reading the low sodium and sugar eating. I missed my heart specialist appointment but will see him on the 19.
The article about what to expect was helpful and writing the 'Dear John' letter. I am on summer vacation and I sort of wishing that I was at work because I spoke only 4 cigarette (two at lunch and two on the way to the subway). At home I am like a rebellious child and smoking like there is no tomorrow. Then the shame and guilt takes over because I am trying to kill the smoke from the neighbors who says it comes through the walls and windows. I have their support and they are my cheerleaders.
Have a great day everyone!
PS hope when I quit I will not be chattering like I feel I am doing now.