huh...i'm not sure what i want to say to this.. for someone who doesn't know me at all, nor has bothered to get to know me on this site, you are very quick to make assumptions on how i handle my personal life. Yes all of my blogs talk about alcohol and smoking, but the only time I smoked was WITH ALCOHOL! I never smoked in the morning, when i drove, after eating, none of it. So when i discuss my struggle with quitting it is only related to alcohol. You also should refrain from judging me about being a role model...you have no idea when i drink or when i don't (and please don't ever bring young children into a discussion about my personal choices of whether i have a drink or not, i would NEVER be anything but professional and appropriate in front of my students!). Once again without getting to know me this is what you think only because it's what i've written about. Shall I make stuff up with fake triggers so it doesn't look like i'm just a horrible drunken influence? I am damn good at what I do, I have won teaching awards both local and regional, and my students come to me for more than just class; they know they can count on me whenever they need something. Sorry ass? I hardly think so...and really I would never result to calling anyone names on here...that is not what we are here for...well what I am here for (hence why I am a member of the positive quitters group). Britney Spears, that kinda made me laugh because she has way deeper issues, and quitting smoking is clearly not one of them. I have my shit together, I am a grad student receiving my Administrative certification, I have a good job, a great family and set of friends, wonderful people on here that I speak with as regularly as possible and have a mutual, positive support system with, and except for my occasional tough time with quitting, an optimistic personality. There is nothing self destructive at all in there; last I checked I am successfully going on day 15 of my quit. If you think my going out one night a week to spend time with my friends is destructive, well that's your opinion. If you think all I do is go out and party (yes as i put it) and get completely liquored up every time, well that's your opinion also and you are entitled to it whether it's right or wrong. I am only 31 yrs old, we do still have fun at my age and go out. Hell half the teachers that come out drinking at our teacher gatherings are older than me. Guess you think no teachers are role models then huh? We are role models, but we do have personal lives, drink cocktails, smoke (if they choose), hell some of them even get drunk sometimes. I know, it's crazy! Business men and women, construction workers, doctors, CEOs, judges, none of them ever do that...cmon Lorraine, I really thought based on some of the previous things I read from you that you weren't this person. While I appreciate that you took the time to read my 20 hour old blog (just now saw I can actually close it out), I don't appreciate the personal attacks. If you have actually read my other posts, comments, etc I have been nothing but supportive and encouraging to people, and while I may include my own personal accounts, it is customary as a teacher to identify with who you are encouraging or supporting, so that way they can see that they are not alone and someone has felt or feels the same way they might at that time, and it usually gives a sense of comfort. Never have I ever said or alluded to the fact that I think quitting is easy on everyone else and poor me I'm the lone ranger having a tough time every now and then. You are on day 40 right? So you should know where I'm at on day 14...I don't know if your goal was strictly to attack me with what you call tough love to get me mad at this demon we battle, but i'm sorry, it doesn't work with me..again why i am a member of the positive quitters club. I have made a "friggin decision" already, and that was to quit. I guess I'm the only one on here that has faced a weak moment huh? That's what you make it sound like; like all i do is go back and forth between wanting and not wanting to quit, and that I am so focused on myself I don't care about anyone else...I am guessing there are a bunch of people who might disagree if you asked them what they thought. Anyway, again I thank you for reading my post, and I wish you all the luck in the world with your quit...
