Hi Grammy,
Just thought I would mention that Allen Carr's website also had an online vidoe series if that helps at all since your quit date is just around the corner! Here's a little of my experience in the hopes that it will help relieve some of your anxiety.
I had been on a beach vacation the week before I quit (on quit day 3 1/2 now) and I spent much of that time on the beach being pensive and thoughtful... will I quit? I didn't have to if I wasn't ready, I gave myself that much permission. It wasn't a question of IF but of WHEN. I had picked my date based on my Mom's death date from emphysema. It took me 8 years later to get serious about quitting. On vacation I would think about quitting and almost immediately have the urge to light up. The anxiety that is produced just from the thought of not having your smokes is one of the cruelest phenomenon of being a smoker. I can so relate to your thoughts! I hope you will forgive my bluntness but it's a Mind F**k if I ever experienced one. For me, the bottom line was I was at least going to try, I had to at least do that much... because my self talk was focusing on a bigger picture besides just what I had to "lose" but also what I had to "gain".
On my quit day I smoked as many as I could smoke while I set myself up by writing my Pros/Cons List. Then I wrote a goodbye letter to my cigarettes. By 9:30 that night I was down to my last one. I had a little ceremony, just me and my last smokey treat. I told it I didn't want to die the way my Mother did, how it already may be too late but at least I would try. I told it I cared more about myself than I did about the loaded gun I had been sucking on the end of for more then 45 years. (See pic below that I took to use as a screensaver. It's not just any picture, its a picture of my last cigarette EVER!) I got to the filter, stubbed it out and went to bed. The next day I found this forum. I still sit in my chair at the window fan (my smoking chair) and I have left my nasty smelling ashtray right where it sat before (sans the butts). It stinks. It reminds me that that smell is also the taste I have in my throat and my lungs and all of my cells. When I am no longer feeling the sensation in my throat of coughed up tar I will throw away the ashtray.
The Winners on this forum - and there are many - have helped me to make it this far just by taking it one day at a time. I had NO IDEA that it's NOT recommended that you look to the future! That there's real truth in the one minute, one hour, one day vision of a Winner Who Quit as well as great tips because they have all "been there, done that." I also had no idea that Junkie Talk was a tried and true real thing... there's so much knowledge and strength here that creates such a great diversion that it's like having a whole cheering section as big as a football stadium ready to call your name on to the field.
When you're ready... come back!
Hugs.
Belle
Anite , yowzah , you were sucking on whole cloves as in the spice, CLOVES ! So funny, those things are extremely strong and pungent to my taste buds , I cannot even handle the hint of it in a food. 
Irish Rose
