Hey Alanushka! I'm real glad to see you involved and I appreciate your honesty. I see you putting way too much pressure on yourself. Quitting smoking is not a punishment. It's a reward for being brave enough to quit. I would suggest that you set a quit date ASAP or just do it now. The ideal time to quit is now before your addiction cons you out of quitting. Just do it. Quitting smoking is getting rid of a comfort blanket you've had for a long time. Just make it through the first few days which are the toughest, and remember the tough part is only temporary. Find other ways to keep your mind occupied. Watch TV, take a walk, call a friend, go out to eat, go see a movie, whatever it takes to get your mind off smoking. I know, easier said than done. Read "Survivors of the same wreck" group and every entry on that group. Michael has a very strong message. Read other members profiles and their stories. You'll get there, you're alot stronger than you realize.........