I feel the same as you do. Right before I put my patch on tonight I felt that fear. The fear of what if I cant do it this time, will I be ok, can I get through the night and day with out a smoke. Iv always thought that I could do anything I wanted but this seems, to have me. 3 weeks ago I would have said of I can quit anytime I want and now that I did it for 12 days and then fell again in to the nicotine trap Im scared to death. Put I also know that im scared of the fact that something has such a hold on to me and that is why Im really going to do this no matter what. If I have to set my clock back as many times as it takes. I will not let this crap run my life. I always have stayed away from drugs and to know that Im addicted to the worst one of all. The main thing is how many people dont know that this is the worst drug out there. I will not let fear stop me.
cheryl