I have dreams in which I am using, many of the old substances, including smoking. It makes me feel horribly guilty most of the time. It wakes me up alot of the time. The best that I can tell it is the subconscious mind replayng the waves of addiction. I think these subconscious patterns are the same that trigger cravings in my waking state. They are an underlying component of my addict mind. The same feelings arise from the dreams of "other" substance and I wake up the same way. I feel like I slipped but then I wake up and I know that I didn't. I have had to actively and purposely redirect my conscious thinking, gently, sometimes not so gently, placing the addict back on course. It truly is a lifelong recovery process. How these things arise in your mind vs how they arise in mine is the difference between us of course but the fact that it happens to all addicts is very interesting indeed. So it happens to us all not just you. 🙂