Hi everyone. I wanted to join this group but am a little behind. I am quitting. I have 2 cigarrettes left and am trying to make them last the rest of the day as my quit date is tomorrow. I am soooo sad right now! I know smoking is a disgusting habit. I know my children don't want to hug me after I've had a cigarrette. I know my co-workers and friends(I only have one smoking friend) hate the smell when I walk back in the office, but I have been smoking for 22 years. More than half my life. I have activities planned for today to keep my mind off it but I am glued to this computer. I've smoked during just about every activity in my life. I've asked my children not to fight with each other today and to help me with Christmas decoration take-down. So far so good.
I can relate to SuzyQ with the anger response. My mother, father and brother smoke. My father recently quit, the week of Thanksgiving, he's one of my inspirations. He smoked for 45 years. I hugged him on Christmas morning and he smelled so clean! His beared wasn't drenched in the acrid smoke smell I've been used to my whole life. I don't know if he'll continue, my mom isn't very supportive.
And Kelly, stick to it. I'm the difficult one in my relationship. I think we sabbotage because we don't want to be alone, at least I do.'It's ok if I do it cuz you do it too.' mindset. ' My husband smokes but he smokes one or two a day and usually not until he's home with me. I've been thinking about that a lot and that's one thing that is going to help me through. I want us to quit together instead of smoke together. I quit once before and it lasted three weeks. I remember the stale smell in all my clothes and my car. I had everything cleaned out and smelling good just in time to start again. I don't want to do that again. I hope we can all help each other.
Chris
