Hey there James!! You are almost there. Don't put yourself down, just do your best to dust yourself off and get back up on that horse! Giddyup!! This is not easy for any of us -- it's so engrained and entrenched into our subconscious minds. You've probably seen me say this at least 100 times now, but what has helped to put it to rest is the thought, "Smoking is not an option." That way I eliminate all the head games that we as addicts play to justify lighting up! My feeling is that you really want this and if you can smoke 2 cigarettes a day, you CAN do this. Smoking 2 cigarettes a day is harder than not smoking in my mind. So, on that note, you've got everything it takes. Hang in there and see if posting before you puff helps as well! ( ) <--- cyber hug coming your way!! Let me know if there is anything I can do to help, K?