Hi everyone, I'm Erin. Tomorrow is day two for me. I've tried this many times, but feel very confident that this is the time for me to quit once and for all. I always go to bed feeling very strong in my resolve, but when I wake up it seems to take me a few hours to convince myself again. To get feeling positive about it again. It's amazing the difference in attitude between when I go to bed and when I wake up. Many times it's been that morning trigger that has made me slip. Particularly when I lived with all smoking roomates, which I don't anymore. I guess I was always a morning smoker. Not as soon as I woke up, but I would start making coffee anticipating lighting up when my cup was ready. Go out on the porch and check out the day. Morning was always the most satisfying cigarette for me because you've gone for a good long time without one, and it gives you that buzz. In conjunction with the coffee, it was what got me going in the morning. Now that I think about it, it's a hell of a way to wake yourself up. Not good at all. However it was a ritual that I loved and I do miss it. I'm realizing as I go that I loved it more for the ritual of it, than actually how the coffee and cig made me feel. I'm thinking I should replace it with a shower right out of bed and green tea. Maybe some stretching or yoga. I'm just not used to being so good to myself I suppose! Takes a little getting used to, but it is wonderful. Much better than all my old empty habits. Consciousness is being brought out here. There's no way I'm giving in because the thought of actually smoking again makes me sick to my stomach, it certainly wouldn't be an enjoyable smoke, so that's good to remember!
Peace and good wishes to all of you!
"Do or do not. There is no try." ~some wise words from Yoda
