Hello All:
My final quit date way May 4th. I tried in April, and succeeded for about 2 weeks before screwing up. I am scared that if i don't quit, I will die. My family has a history of being both smokers and diabetics--two things which really do not work well at all. I just want to try to do my best to be as healthy as possible, because honestly, I am afraid to die. Not only do the obvious things cross my mind, like the cost, the smell, the bad breath, health issues, etc., but ultimately, I don't want to die like others in my family have--living on oxygen tanks and circling the drain for years before they die. I quit a few times in the past, using various methods, but ultimately, I went back to smoking. On this attempt, I am using the patch, because it worked for me in the past. The desire to smoke is god awful, but I try to remind myself that I can always go outside and walk around for a while until I forget about smoking the cigarette. I just hope that I don't fall off the wagon again this time--I already pay higher premiums for my health insurance because I smoke--on top of the fact that it costs so darn much to buy a pack, the cost is unconsionable--I could give that money to a food pantry and feed a family with the money I am spending. If I can quit smoking and get healthy, I will be so excited--I need support though, because I honestly don't think I can do this by myself.
