Yesterday I came very close to giving up my quit, thankfully I did not and today I have 94 days smober. I messaged Meriah to vent yesterday after I was out of the situation that I was feeling stressed by, enough to want to smoke, and it helped. Today I am a little down, still having some Smoking thoughts, realizing that even though I know and experience the many benefits of not smoking, I still came seconds away from giving up my quit. I had gone to the place I used to volunteer at and smoking was a big part of my day there in the past. Oh gosh, I am so very grateful that I did not give up my quit; but shocked that I nearly did. It was the anxiety and stress I felt at that place, even though it is a great place, and just old patterns of behavior being tweeked in me that had me thinking thoughts like, Oh, what the heck, just try one, it'll feel good---bla, bla bla. That addict brain is something else and tobacco is an insidious enemy. Anyway, just needed to vent. Thanks for listening. Oh also, I got my day off to a hectic and early start yesterday and did not take the time to do the daily pledge--,that might have played a role in my coming close to the edge yesterday. I know that for me the daily pledge is an important part of staying quit. Cheers
