Lazy and unproductive

[Lisaml]

so I have mentioned this before, but I always had a cigarette BEFORE I did anything, then another to mark the completion of any given task. 

Now ive been free for 32 days, and I am a sloth. 

Dont get me wrong, I workout, work, take care of the fam, but in the afternoons/evenings? BIG FAT NOTHING. 

I've read about people keeping busy and cleaning out closets, drawers, etc.... 

NOT me. I watch tv, read and hang out on my couch. 

Its almost like I'm afraid to "commit" to accomplishing anything because I will miss the "bookend" smoke too much. 

Is this weird ? 

Ok, yes I'm weird, but has anyone else felt like a sloth in the first month (s)?!?

[minihorses]

Yep me too. I'm on day 113, still a sloth and 20 pounds heavier.  Not where I want to be.but I haven't smoked and will be a little more productive when the weather warms up. I despise cold weather.  BUT I haven't smoked.  I came really, really close to smoking yesterday and today but today I sat outside in the parking lot of the gas station fighting with myself about getting a pack of smokes.  The gum I chew is only available a couple of places around here and that place was one of the two.  It took everything I had not to ask for a pack of cigarettes when I was paying the cashier.  I walked out with 4 packs of gum and nothing else.  It reminded me that I don't have to smoke, it's a choice and this time I "have chosen wisely" (Indiana Jones Last Crusade).  Another urge to smoke will come along in this quit but I made it over one hurdle, on to the next.  You take care of yourself, This is still detox stage!

Julie

[Barbara145]

I wore a whole in my leather couch with my elbow.  I had always been a very productive person smoking all those cigarettes.  Quitting stopped me in my tracks too.  You will figure out life one day at a time in your journey to wellness.  I think you are doing great.  Keep taking good care of yourself.

[elvan]

It takes time to get over that fear of starting something and then missing the "reward" cigarette.  We CAN find ways to reward ourselves that are not HARMING us.  I was really sick when I quit and there was no cleaning out closets or drawers for me, I couldn't even work out for quite a while.  It DOES get better.

[PRAIRIEROSELADY]

Oh goodie! I get to look forward to this when I reach my main home up north in early March........

I wouldn't want to be left out of anything!!!!!!!!!! OMG! That will be a doozy for me.............Prairie

[minihorses]

Unfortunately we all go through this at some point during our quit, especially women I've found.  You can do it!

[MartyO]

YES!!!  This stream is very helpful.  Feelin it.