I might crumble and I take a fall again, but all i can do is resaddle and hop back on. I just don't have a choice. My girlfriend and I got into the biggest argument of our relationship last night, and the most serious. Before I knew it we were on our way to the gas station. Neither of us wanted to even go, but it has become a habit, and I think we fight to smoke. We decided we just have to keep on trying and we threw out the rest of the pack. I think this weekend we are going to spend all our time spring cleaning to keep our minds off of smoking, and we decided that next time we fight we will get in the car and just drive to a park or something. Its strange when I quit smoking all the guilt I feel; like I am telling everyone who I used to smoke with that they are dirty. I lost a lot of good friends when I quit drinking. I think i am afriad of that happening.