Crystal,
Although I think it is commendable that you have tried to cut back...cutting back and quitting are 2 different things, When you quit you are done and I don;'t think it makes a huge difference if you smoked one or twenty it is going to be hard but totally worth it!
I never cut back and just quit on my day. I used the patch and it was really helpful, Their are lots of meds available and I would recommend using one. Their is no glory in trying to go cold turkey when so much help is there. Many people are using Chantrix and I also hear that the gum is helpful. The most important thing for me this time was that I really meant it, I had a plan, and I followed the plan. I found mints really helpful. Also remembering that a physical urge only lasts about 3 minutes helped. You can make it through 3 minutes! That's how I am quitting 3 minutes at a time. Today is day 54 for me and I hardly think about it,,,some days are worse then others but I have not had a puff since 2/28,
Develop your plan, do the work you need to do, pick your day! You can do this!!!
In the long run you will realize that their is not a single good reason to smoke but a million reason to quit.. Always remember your reason!!!
Prayers.
Susan - Free and Healing for One Month, Twenty Four Days, 21 Hours and 46 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 3 Days and 11 Hours, by avoiding the use of 1006 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $289.99.