Funny, you really want to quit--so much so that you are willing to tell all right here about your quits and returns to smoking.
I don't know what is causing you to return to smoking, but I can share a few thoughts about what you said. First of all, I've been quit six years. I do not have a forever quit, I'm smober just for today. This is the only day that I can handle--I can't do all of the work of my tomorrows today--I have to leave that work for tomorrow. So, I am smober six years for sure, but it's just one day at a time. I don't rely solely on what I've learned yesterday in staying smober--it may not help me tomorrow--just for today I live smoberly.
Don't quit for anyone else but you. I know you love your daughter and grandson, but do them a favor and smober up for you. Addiction doesn't obey the laws of love--we have a hard enough time with the laws of love without addictions gumming up the works.
I believe it takes solid smobriety work over several years time to heal the mind of nicotine dependency and all the stuff that goes with dependency. Three months is not your problem, dependency is and it can be broken with your efforts. You want to quit, so that is your quiding light. Ex is here for you 365. Keep working for your quit.
My opinions, take what you can use, dump the rest.
