Keep working it. Try to remember that it is you that matters not the cigarette. I thoroughly enjoyed smoking too, until I didn't have them which means, addiction of course. Hard to see addiction for the tragedy that it is. Unlike alcohol or other drugs, smokes don't make us loopy. Nicotine is administered every 20 mins to an hour via the cigarette for the smoker for most of the day. It seems like enjoyment (never mind lung cancer, throat cancer, copd...etc.) but it really is an administration of nicotine that the brain has learned to beg for.
I'll never forget a c1970s/1980s news story about a chimp that was trained to tap a lever for a dose of cocaine (poor beast!) and so it would keep tapping and tapping for the drug.
Smoking is a habit, but the big picture is that it is an addiction. Learning to quit tapping for the dose is a one day at a time journey. And boy is the reward of freedom that eventually comes from bearing the difficult feelings without smoking so much greater than the tap, tap, tap.
Sounds like you mean business, so keep giving yourself permission to quit, to change!
High five!
