Give and get support around quitting
I'm a 21 year old worship leader at a small/medium sized youth group in the far west suburbs of Chicago. I started smoking in the fall of '08. Mostly, I started because it was the only way to get a break while i was working. Then it turned into an all day habit peaking at about a pack a day. Any time i was bored or frustrated or driving or after i ate or when i got out of the car.... It got out of hand quickly. I soon found smoking buddies who smoked even more than i did which just pulled me further in the wrong direction. After about a year of tolerance from my girlfriend, she put her foot down and said you have to quit. After 12 months of smoking, I threw my last pack away.
I picked the username 'romanticiser' because thats why I still fight with smoking. I never had a physical attachment to smoking. I had no physical withdraws from quitting. However even now 4 months later I struggle psychologically. I had and still have such a psychological attachment. I constantly romanticize having a cigarette. I long for the way I felt when i was bored but could reach for a smoke and just be. Not sit and think about everything.
The more time I spend here on becomeanex.org the more i realize that im downright wrong for romanticizing something that tears apart so many lives and families. I look forward to utilizing the support system that is evident here in this community and i think it would be a huge help for me to participate as well in supporting all of you. Thanks for reading. And thanks in advance for your words of encouragement.
God is Love
keep at, ive been off them for a week now you can doit!