Hi there everyone! I have been working on changing my thoughts and reactions toward smoking, and I worry that I have hit a stumbling block. Can anyone here help?
The problem is my own addict mind-games are wearing me out. I have been working on separating for about a week now, and my mind is treating each smoke as a reward for waiting instead of something to be avoided. It seems like the longer I wait for one the more I enjoy it. I hate to even admit that here, and I feel ashamed. Does this mean that separation is not going to work for me, or is there some way to change that mind-set that has me stuck? Should I not even bother with separating and just quit now? I fear that if I don't prepare myself correctly then I am doomed for failure. I want to be ready, I do not want to fail. I also do not want to "trick" myself into putting it off just so I can smoke longer. This problem has me feeling depressed, anxious, and irritated, more than I could have ever imagined that it would. I sit here now with tears in my eyes, embarassed because I know the answer should be so simple. Help me, please?